Psychic Telephone · 57
Tanya
Not sure what Psychic Telephone is all about? Check out our first and second posts for an introduction to the project. Read our first post about Tanya here.
Tanya has always had an interest in metaphysical things. And those ideas weren’t denied in her upbringing, they just weren’t central. Growing up in North Dallas, she was raised Catholic and had a great experience in the Church. She felt herself to be a child of God. But she also didn’t feel that they were being taught how to transform themselves, entirely. Even though it’s there—the act of contrition, confession—it wasn’t fully explained. And there were a lot of people who used religion as rules, as right or wrong, this black-or-white kind of picture that never really made sense to her. So she never fully rejected Catholicism, but she wasn’t able to access the esoteric meaning she was looking for.
She does think she was naturally more aware of certain energies than other people. When she was a child, her mom was a flight attendant and they traveled a lot, so they’d stay with different family members and in hotels. And one of the things she noticed as a kid was that she’d have dreams about those locations, about other people—probably just from the accumulation of energy that was there. Because something about them was different. She could tell they weren’t her dreams. They felt a little off, or very intense. It wasn’t your typical dream space, and she was doing things she wouldn’t normally do. And even in the dream, she would be like, Why am I here?
The most vivid one happened when she was in college. She was visiting some friends at Texas A&M, sleeping in a big room on the top bunk of a bunk bed, and in her sleep she started screaming bloody murder. She was having a dream that she was being raped by a man in black. He was completely covered up. And then he got up and went out the window. She saw the whole thing happen. And there was an intense fear and emotion that she hadn’t felt before. She has never been raped, but it felt very, very real. Her friends woke her up, and the next day when she described the dream, they said there had been a serial rapist in the area who would go in through windows, who had been caught. They thought, Wow, maybe one of the rapes actually took place in this apartment.
Later on, when she was in graduate school in Denver, what started her on a path of spiritual development was a visit to an astrologer. She was stressed, just really busy, studying urban planning, remodeling a house, working full-time, and in a kind of mediocre marriage—they’re no longer married. And she felt like she needed something else. The astrologer read her chart and said, You’re just exhausted. He told her she badly needed an aura healing. She was like, What’s that? So he sent her over to the Inner Connection Institute to get one. He also said her chart showed that she had a propensity toward things like this, so she might really like their program.
All the aura healing was, really, was a woman waving her hands around her, and Tanya was like, This is a little weird. But she immediately felt better, felt relief. And then she started taking classes and just fell in love with the program, with the system. There are many systems out there, she says, and a lot of people in the metaphysical world love to jump around. They’ll take a reiki class, a dowsing class, a meditation class. And she’s dabbled—and neither way is right or wrong—but she liked this one. She felt like, I’ve found it. And after about a year they asked if she’d like to start teaching for them.