Psychic Telephone · 44
Julia
(Not sure what Psychic Telephone is all about? Check out our first and second posts for an introduction to the project.)
After her falling-out with her boss at the psychic hotline, Julia went through a phase, almost a decade, where she just didn’t want to do readings. She didn’t feel like she had anything to say that was going to be upbeat. So she got forced back out, got a normal job. She teaches seventh- and eighth-grade English now. And she thinks that really helped her develop more social skills. She worked very hard to be more normal, to be more able to talk to people.
She does feel worried about people at work finding out she has this other life. She now lives in a very Catholic city, and she doesn’t want any of the kids, or the parents—like, backlash. So she has to be careful that way. But of course at her job she’s always noticing things, being in a room with a bunch of kids. Like, That guy over there is in a funk. Mmmm, problems with the dad, abandoned by the dad. Usually she tracks it. And sometimes she tries—she’ll be writing the school counselor, saying she’s worried about so-and-so and she doesn’t know why but they seem off. And they’ll be like, What? But what can she say? So there’s a lot she doesn’t say.
For a while she got kind of atheistic, and like, there’s no meaning. She guesses, for her, she definitely doesn’t believe in a God that looks anything like us. That thing where it’s like, Let’s make religion and pretend we’re fashioned after God—she doesn’t know about that. But she does think there’s a life force and some kind of divine wisdom. It’s like there’s an eternal part of us out there that’s all wise and doesn’t have a physical body. And kind of, different spirits go different places, almost like a carnival, and this is the ride we’re on—the Earth ride. Just for fun! To explore free will and just try things and experiment. It’s a really beautiful planet. It’s gorgeous here. But it’s rough. It’s like a wild roller coaster, and we go on this ride and it’s intense, and then maybe we take a break and go somewhere else where it’s more chill. But this is a carnival ride, so don’t get upset about what’s fair and not fair. It’s part of the ride.
And after this, she thinks there’s a place we go that’s peaceful, if we want to. Where we all look like big stars in some galaxy. One time this woman came through Denver from Brazil, she was a faith healer. It was annoying—you had to wear pure white. Like, why? But she did the healing and Julia literally experienced herself as a star in space. It’s hard to explain it, but it was really an experience of, she could feel her God consciousness, her spiritual consciousness. Pure energy. Like, I’m a star. This is the real me, this energy being. It was very visceral and intense, holy shit.
And that was great, because she felt like, if there’s a part of her out there that’s that, she really doesn’t need to worry about anything that’s happening here. Because this is so minuscule. It’s very meaningful for us when we’re in it, but it’s a blip, a drop in a bucket. And that was really a relief.
And maybe Earth is like the place where the toddlers go and, you know, they just wreck it. Like the ball pit. And it’s covered in slobber and boogers and vomit, because we’re not that evolved. A really evolved, divine being wouldn’t be trashing their own planet. And murdering each other and stockpiling guns and whatever. So she doesn’t think that’s what we’re here for. She thinks we’re here because it’s like a play place, where you can really get dirty, where we get to rough ourselves up and push the limits. And it won’t all be positive. So work on acceptance of the imperfections and try to enjoy it anyway.